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Storie di amicizia

2009-01-14T22:04:00.001+02:00

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L'amicizia perfetta

2009-01-14T21:55:00.002+02:00

L'amicizia perfetta nasce tra i buoni e tra quanti hanno raggiunto un comune grado di virtu.
Essi si vogliono bene perche sono buoni e mirano al bene in quanto bene; veri amici sono proprio quelli che desiderano desinteressatamente il bene degli amici...
Tra di loro si crea un rapporto di amicizia saldo e siguro, perche si fonda sulla stabilita della virtu : ciascun amico allora tende al bene in quanto bene e per il fatto che giova all'amico.

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2008-01-25T18:58:00.001+02:00

learning to walk on broken glass
" ...and i'm not the one i used to know..."
still bleeding from the scars i gave myself
"...i'm not the one i used to show..."
i can face the world now
"...i'm not the one i used to think i am..."
and i can finally step out of my dreams
"...i'm not the one..."
even if i don't make sense
"...i'm not the one i used to hide..."
i speak without fear of the consequence
"...i'm not the same one..."
and my words no longer hide the truth
...i'm not ..."

temporarily permanent things

2008-01-11T19:38:00.001+02:00

i'm not insane, they think they know,
they think i care, i think i don't.
floating through whatever dreams i have,
reaching out to something i still can't see,
but i try,
and soon enough, because i can,
i'll teach myself to fly.
writing words on the inside of my eyes,
so i can still read
when they decide it's time
to switch off the lights.
they build walls around their thoughts
but i am strong enough to eventually
break down the doors.
you run, screaming your fears to the sky,
and i think i'm tired
so i start another fire.

how i saved myself from drowning

2007-12-29T18:49:00.001+02:00

...and how i saved myself from drowning
you'll never know...

slowly, repeatedly raising my head above the water,
i let out a wild laugh or a terrified scream,
take it as you will.

they thought i was a ghost, unseen, uncalled for-
but ghosts don't tell the truth and open your scars now,
do they?
you wanted me gone, wanted to silence me for good
but somehow, in the middle of the night
i came back, burning down the door
with one touch of my hand.
they took me to see the water, praying the wet abyss would
kill my words and take them under,
really down under.

slowly, repeatedly raising my head above the water,
i let out a wild laugh or a terrified scream,
take it as you will.

...and how i saved myself from drowning
you'll never know...

what do i want?

2007-12-11T16:02:00.000+02:00

i want to hurt you
i want to hurt you so bad,
and the words will bleed out
like never ending excuses.

i want to kill you,
breathe your life away,
steal the dreams
and make a new dream,
for me...

i want to save you,
half dead impression on the sidewalk,
and i, the archangel,
your hope, your life...

...no...

i will leave you here,
lose your scent
and wash away your prints;
but this obsession i have-
won't leave me alone...

...I'll think about it...-

hardened

2007-12-08T20:00:00.001+02:00

do you remember me?
I'm the clay you molded years ago,
I'm the wings that took you far away,
I'm the dream that helped you escape,
I'm the conscience that brought you back-
i am.

can you hear me?
I'm the voice you never had,
I'm the words you couldn't say,
I'm the silence you never rejoiced,
I'm the picture you'll never escape-
i am.

do you feel me?
I'm the future you'll never see,
I'm the sweet taste of revenge you miss,
I'm the forgiveness you'll never be,
I'm the one to take you down-
i am!

dream of smoke

2007-12-07T18:50:00.000+02:00

A song, a memory...
I'm trying hard to find myself.
Trapped in a dream of shapeless endings-

smoke and fire down below,
smoke and sleep.

An instant of awareness,
a lifetime of ignorance,
in my dream-

smoke and flames in my bed,
smoke and sleep.

Eyes piercing through to me,
crawling under my skin
they burn, they heal-

smoke and ashes in my head,
smoke and sleep...

don't wake me up!

kill me, teach me

2007-12-03T21:24:00.001+02:00

"so" i say, staring at the mirror,
"is this what i tried to be?
can it be that easy for my mask to disappear,
and the world i tried to fool
to see the real me?"
scared, angry and almost confused
i hid underneath the words i carefully penned
and hope you didn't see.
now i'm speaking from what others taught me,
afraid to ever think again.
if i can't be me,
if i can't even pretend,
how can you judge,
how can you say what is real?
taking my wisdom from punches i've thrown,
learning to go on from the dust i've bitten,
i pick myself up and ask for more.
break me, kill me, teach me!

2007-12-01T13:56:00.000+02:00

it's a battle i can't win,
the horror of it all will eat me alive.
i will die with the knife in my hand,
as long as it has your blood on it.
the paper monsters i've been fighting
these last few months
have left paper cuts
so deep,
so many,
so real.
i hate the wait,
i can't bear to start again, it's crazy,
i'm older,
i'm too young.
deep inside, the concrete walls of my judgment
are falling,
one by one.
i'm back to war,
against paper monsters
and you.

who i am

2007-11-26T22:27:00.000+02:00

tired,
on the verge of trading places
i reconsider painting faces.
lost,
in the middle of a nameless crisis
i submit my protests in the book of lies.
and i go back
so i can be again,
free from prejudice
and hoping to get a new name:
i am Speak,
because i say these words,
i am Fight,
from winning all your wars.
i am who i want to be,
not because i can-
it's what you made of me.

portrait of the artist as a lunatic

2007-11-21T22:42:00.000+02:00

i criticize myself, and go back to the beginning
once every two minutes.
when i'm old enough and
my wings are ready
i'll jump off the building i designed.
stardust on my nails,
fire and brimstone in my veins,
i change my mind
once every two world wars.
call me a genius
or call me at midnight,
i'll save your soul and hold grudges for you.
tired of predicting the end of the world
i take a long pause
and smoke another cigarette,
once every two light years.

don't

2007-11-19T18:57:00.000+02:00

don't worry, i'm slow to react
but i'll come around
and hit you back.
don't miss me, i'm quick to forget
still, somehow i'll get back
my mind.
don't fear me, i'm harmless
but i'll knock
the shit out of you.
don't find me, i'm not here right now,
just wait,
you'll hear me scream your name
when i feel like it.

tips on how to...

2007-11-16T19:30:00.003+02:00

"the best things", i say,
"are affordable and you get them at
half price,
when you least expect".
this is a conversation i've been having
with myself for years,
but i still
can't find the point.
cruising between duties,
i pick my favorites
and the rest of them i put them
in a sordid category,
the "i'm too young for this" one.
cracking jokes and heads as i
take over the world,
unknowingly and unaware
of my flaws,
i build my walls,
criticism-proof.
i'm too good for you,
still,
i can teach you a few things about
taking advantage of your own
indifference.
just leave a name and number
and i'll get back to you,
when i get my head out of the clouds.

an aggravation of my own confusion

2007-11-16T19:30:00.001+02:00

the voices in my head are all vacant,
i only hear a mumble,
a whispering crowd confusing me.
i can't tell what's real anymore,
so i wait,
i stop.
running around in circles,
praying for a revelation,
i get dizzy,
i fall.
the voices in my head are on strike,
i can now hear everything out there,
but inside my head i'm lost,
so i wait,
i stop
.

saturday night drunk monologue

2007-11-10T18:27:00.000+02:00

"How have you been?"

Yes, I hate my voice too.

With your self-sufficient smile,

narrow minded and slightly drunk,

you pass me by,

slowly enough to see my practiced indifference.

If I could, if I had a way with words,

maybe I would have given you

something to dream about.

But, here I am, hiding behind a bottle of beer

and setting my frustration on fire,

pretending I light a cigarette.
I'm speechless,

you're drunk by now-

we'd make such a nice pair,

but I hate the way you look at me.

This is

not good enough,

I'm not drunk enough.

...

Oh, and I don't like your shirt.

me

2007-11-08T13:24:00.001+02:00

i am me.
and there's nothing you can do about it...
look at me,
as i slow down and hear you talk
about me.
stand up, think out of your box and speak
to me.
i can take everything, i know what you must think
of me.
i know all the words to every song
that you might have written
thinking
of me.
i can give myself up and still
you're not even half
of me.
try harder, and i'll let you fly
with me,
maybe.
blame
me
for what you can't do,
hurt
me
for what they say to you,
you're not me.
we come from the same place,
but
i'm faster and wiser,
catch me.
hold me
down,
i'll give you a head start,
follow me,
observe me,
hate me.
and
when i break the cycle,
miss me.

a date

2007-10-24T20:52:00.001+03:00

clear up my head,
go away, one last time.
we'll meet again tomorrow,
on the edge of the same building,
contemplating infinity.
a bitter smile, carved on the corner of my lips,
it's a mask i can't dispose.
i'll wash the silence off my face,
get new colours for my nightmares.
you go away now,
leave me alone
in my oversaturated universe,
i'm inventing new names
for my old fears,
just to stay busy.
i left the world behind and bought this
-oh so craved for-
peace of mind.
must abuse it for what it's worth,
wait for me there,
i'll soon be out of breath.

cigarette break conversation

2007-10-19T12:21:00.002+03:00

i'm not gonna change my mind
because you think it's twisted.
i'll take my time,
teach you my rules...
i'll show you how to turn water
into nothing at all.
i'll tell you when it's time to stalk
and when it's fine to kill.
one day,
i'll let you know
how i invented life and death-
such beautiful notions -
be patient, all in good time!
just sit there
and watch, learn, wait...
when all this is over,
we'll hunt each other down,
perfectly trained
animals of prey.

silence

2007-10-19T12:21:00.001+03:00

silence
and a word stuck in my head.
silence
and the scars on my wrists.
silence
and the demons by my side.
silence
and the white light, far away.
silence
and a note with what i forgot to say.
silence
and the regrets.
silence.

gone by

2007-10-13T17:29:00.001+03:00

where is your glory now?

hiding behind every beer bottle,

you drink your life,

for what it's worth.

telling stories of the past,

when your name was written in blood

all over teenagers' wrists,

and your every word

was the Bible according to

you.

so, where are you now?

digging deep in your soul

to find self respect?

or telling your name to strangers,

hoping they remember you?

i don't want to see who you've become;

and you waste your time,

i won't tell them your name.

it's just a story,

with no happy ending,

because you know misery sells,

and you never get a second chance.

a thought

2007-10-13T17:28:00.001+03:00

it's just that weird feeling
we all get,
when we find the mirror,
but can't find ourselves.
that same word,
full of bitterness and anger,
we all say,
when we find ourselves,
but we can't find our place.
sure, it's the same look on your face,
when you see me,
hands in my pocket
and smoke in my head.
we found each other,
separate lives,
parallel ways.

die with me

2007-10-08T18:50:00.001+03:00

it sounds like crumbled paper,
your voice.
you look at me with sandy eyes,
lost inside a dream
of blood red roses
and sharp noises...
and we wait.
the end of the world is near,
like a car crash waiting to happen.
it will only take a lifetime
to see things
in a new darkness.
together we stand,
facing time and consequences-
i am not afraid,
the life we waste
is nothing,
compared to how
revenge should taste!

pact

2007-10-07T16:49:00.000+03:00

they won't leave me alone,
the violent angels
with steel wings
that hurt my face.
the winter of our distress,
our sickness and
we, the problem children
wandering around.
i cut my veins to show you
there's still life in this
scorched, frowned
recipient
we call body.
help me kill the angels
and melt their wings,
we'll make us weapons
and rule the dead.

punishment

2007-10-05T19:36:00.001+03:00

we never stop learning,
you say,
and your fast thinking is giving me
motion sickness.
you stop.
start over
and i re-arrange my obsessions
alphabetically.
in the horror of what
i've become,
you send me back in my corner,
to play with the spiders.

guide to being me

2007-10-04T15:48:00.000+03:00

I'm as real as they come,
punching against walls
and bulletproof windows,
I'm real.

I'm as "me" as it gets,
hiding in the spotlight
of forever playing shows,
that's me.

I'm as young as you want me,
pretending i listen,
when I'm actually erasing
everything from my head
as we speak,
cause I'm young.

I'm as cool as i can be,
puppets, strings and no
instructions attached.
I'm cool...yeah...
I'm too cool

on my knees

2007-10-01T11:25:00.000+03:00

raising my head so i can look at you,
this glimpse
a dark past, chasing me
moving my hand so i can brush you away
these awful words,
a truth hard to swallow
taking a breath so i can speak to you
the all seeing pillar of
nothing at all.
my knees hurt
and it's not from praying,
not at all...
i'm done here, let's do it again sometime
you can shut me up
like no-one else.

snow whiter

2007-10-01T11:24:00.000+03:00

spinning around in a maze,
not sure if i want to get out
or just leave you behind.
i smashed my mirrors-
liar,
and now i'm counting
the years of bad luck.
i already paid for all my future sins,
i shed blood and many, many skins.
carefully poisoning the apples
now,
wipe your crystal tears,
they won't save you.
feel the taste of passing time
on your lips,
go to sleep, you selfish bitch,
i'll be waiting,
i'll trick your prince,
it's a lost bet here,
you see,
i'll take a chance and play my cards right
tonight,
it's just them and
me.

2007-03-19T14:37:00.001+02:00

Turn away,
If you could get me a drink
Of water 'cause my lips are chapped and faded
Call my aunt Marie
Help her gather all my things
And bury me in all my favorite colors,
My sisters and my brothers, still,
I will not kiss you,
'Cause the hardest part of this is leaving you.

Now turn away,
'Cause I'm awful just to see
'Cause all my hairs abandoned all my body,
Oh, my agony,
Know that I will never marry,
Baby, I'm just soggy from the chemo
But counting down the days to go
It just ain't living
And I just hope you know

That if you say (if you say)
Goodbye today (goodbye today)
I'd ask you to be true (cause I'd ask you to be true)

'Cause the hardest part of this is leaving you
'Cause the hardest part of this is leaving you

Top of the whole wide world

2007-03-18T21:24:00.000+02:00

For a time, I thought my faith, it must be hiding
Searching through the sky, hoping to find a way
A way, to get me through the day
Don't know where I belong, is this where I should stay

[Chorus:]
Lift me up, when I am falling
You're my friend, when I was calling
Now I'm on top of the world
Top of the whole wide world
Yeah, you've always been believing
Gave my life a whole new meaning
Now I'm on top of the world
Top of the whole wide world

There's a strength in me, it seems, I have forgotten
Now I, realized today, I'm starting to dream again
Again, was a matter of when
I guess we all lose our way, now and then

[Chorus:]
Lift me up, when I am falling
You're my friend, when I was calling
Now I'm on top of the world
Top of the whole wide world
Yeah, you've always been believing
Gave my life a whole new meaning
Now I'm on top of the world
Top of the whole wide world

You lift me up, when I was falling
You lift me up, when I was falling

[Chorus:]
Lift me up, when I am falling
You're my friend, when I was calling
Now I'm on top of the world
Top of the whole wide world
Yeah, you've always been believing
Gave my life a whole new meaning
Now I'm on top of the world
Top of the whole wide world
(Whole wide world)

Yeah, you've always been believing
Gave my life a whole new meaning
Now I'm on top of the world
Top of the whole wide world

Always been believing
Gave my life a whole new meaning
Now I'm on top of the world
Top of the whole wide world

Yea, yeah

Top of the whole wide world

Yeah, you've always been believing
Gave my life a whole new meaning
Now I'm on top of the world
Top of the whole wide world...

Secret Love Lyrics

2007-03-18T21:16:00.000+02:00

Once I had a secret love
That lived within the heart of me
All too soon my secret love
Became impatient to be free

So I told a friendly star
The way that dreamers often do
Just how wonderful you are
And why I'm so in love with you

Now I shout it from the highest hill
Even told the golden daffodils
At last my heart's an open door
And my secret love's no secret anymore

Now I shout it from the highest hill
Even told the golden daffodils
At last my heart's an open door
And my secret love's no secret anymore

10 lucruri urasc la tine!

2007-03-18T20:49:00.000+02:00

Urasc felul cum imi vorbesti si felul cum te tunzi;
Urasc cum imi conduci masina,urasc cum ma privesti;
Urasc ghetele tale militare si felul in care imi citesti gandurile
Te urasc atat de mult ca mi se face rau si ma face sa scriu versuri;
Urasc faptul ca ai intodeauna dreptate,urasc cand minti;
Urasc cand ma faci sa rad si mai rau cand ma faci sa plang;
Urasc ca nu esti in preajma si ca nu ai sunat,
Dar cel mai mult,urasc felul in care nu te urasc ,
Nici macar pe-aproape,nici macar putin,chiar deloc!

Social distortion

2007-03-17T14:26:00.000+02:00

I'm a Cadillac tramp at the end of his road
a swap meet rat who's sitting on gold, yeah baby
I'm a guitar gangster without a tune
I'm the baseball bat that's waiting to swing
Your loan shark friend with the broken knees
I'm a penthouse pauper with nothing to do

Yeah, Yeah, Yeah, I'm chasing Nickles and Dimes
The rest of the world passes me by
Nah, Nah, Nah, Im just wasting my time
I'm just sitting here and wondering why?

I'm the high rolling creep that's in too deep
with the slicked back hair and the silver teeth, yeah baby
I'm a vagabond king with a stolen crown
I'm a jailhouse poet, a genius, a fool
I'm the pimp who lost his cool, yeah baby
I've got first class taste in a second class town

I'm a loaded gun that pointed at the mirror
A drugstore cowboy whose end is near, yeah baby
I'm a big time schemer with broken down dreams
I'm a derelict rebel without a cause
I ain't the cat with the sharpest claws, no baby
Cause sometimes life just ain't what it seems.

And just like you, I'm wondering why.

Asta e un cantec de la Social Distortion, trupa punk din California. Si asta e un post facut de mine, nu de sister :)

Cruella deVille

Only Hope

2007-03-15T21:51:00.000+02:00

"Este forba despre un cantec care este in interiorul sufletului meu,
Este acela pe care incerc sa il scriu si sa il rescriu de fiecare data,
Ma trezesc intr-un infinit rece...
Vrei te rog sa imi canti o data si inca o data?
Asa ca imi las capul pe spate,imi ridic mainile si
Ma rog sa fiu numai a ta,ma rog sa fiu numai si numai a ta,
Stiu acum ca tu esti singura mea speranta

Canta-mi te rog frumos cantecul stelelor,
Despre Galaxiile care danseaza,rad si iara-si rad!
Cand simt ca visul meu este asa de departe,
Tu canta-mi despre planurile
Pe care le ai pentru mine,iar si iara!

Asa ca imi las capul pe spate,
Imi ridic mainile catre cer si ma rog,
Sa fiu a ta si numai a ta,
Deoarece acum am inteles ca tu esti singura mea speranta!

Iti ofer destinul meu,ma ofer toata tie
Tot ce vreau e ca tu sa canti despre tot ce sunt eu,
Iar cu o voce puternica,dau tot ceea ce este mai bun din mine!

Asa ca imi las capul pe spate,
Imi ridic mainile catre cer si ma rog,
Sa fiu a ta si numai a ta,
Deoarece acum am inteles ca tu esti singura mea speranta!

Viata

2007-03-15T19:22:00.000+02:00

Cu totii stim ca viata este speciala,frumoasa si palpitanta daca exista dragoste!La fel,cu totii stim ca daca iubim este normal sa si suferim,este ca un cerc, iubesti dar si suferi din dragoste. E ceva normal si la urma urmei asta face viata frumoasa!
Ganditi-va voi cum ar fi sa trece-ti prin viata fara sa iubiti si la randul vostru sa fiti iubiti?Cred ca cuvantul cel mai potrivit pentru aceasta este "sec",o viata fara dragoste=o viata seaca,stearpa,stearsa!
Cred ca cu totii stiti ca intr-o relatie nu totul merge bine, relatia o putem compara cu o scala de la unul la zece,cateodata ajunge de nota 10 dar si de nota 1. Este ceva normal sa fie cu suisuri si coborasuri,de asta se zice ca atunci cand iubesti, esti iubit dar si suferi.
Dar dragostea este ca un cantec al marilor cantareti,in cantec te oferi in totalitate persoane dragi,faci totul pentru aceea persoana si ca aceea persoana sa se simta deosebita si in centul atentiei! Asa este normal!
Poate sa fie aceea dragoste nebuna pe care aproate toti o cunoastem in aceea perioada din an cand e soare si cald afaraCe credeti,exista dragoste la prima vedere? Si daca da,poate dura o vesnicie?? Cand simti ca iti ard talpile si inima? Cand vezi pe baiatul sau pe fata aceea care crezi ca ti-a furat inima si a pus un lacat mare pe ea si ca sa te pastreze langa el sau ea arunca cheia departe de tot in vazduh cu gandul ca nu o sa o mai gasesti niciodata si astfel nu poti fugi de dragostea care te asteapta,de dragostea care iti este pregatita si abia asteapta sa fie gustata!
Ce parere aveti despre expresia "Dragotea trece si prin stomac!"nu credeti ca o simtiti cu toata fiinta voastra,ca atunci cand v-ati indragostit aveti in permanenta fluturasi in stomac,in mod special cand va intalniti sau va ganditi la persoana iubita?